With a Little Help From My Friends...

I am dancing my way (sometimes not so graciously) through a tremendous life transition. A few things I know for sure: I am determined to dance, to sing, to play, to write, to learn, and to love (especially myself) throughout the entire process.

Some friends of mine have recently posted some great thoughts on Facebook and this post is the perfect place for me to keep them while I grow, as I change, and move towards true acceptance of myself and my life.

A few days ago, my amazing friend Rachel put the following words as her status: "Saying goodbye to a toxic person frees us to nurture so many other beautiful and healthy relationships....and I think once we (as graciously as possible) can let go of that person, we'll find that we aren't brokenhearted, but may even feel profound relief! I know I have..... :)"

In response to Rachel's post, her friend Diana said:
"There is so much happiness in my life that it made the path to forgiveness and let go a lot easier to get through. I can never thank my sunshine and my sweet children enough for giving me the gift of happiness. I have been thinking about the process that has taken place and I am amazed at how little room there is in my heart for sadness. I feel peace and tremendous love that comes to me in so many perfect ways, so pure, selfless and full of charity."

The sentiments from these two incredible women were absolutely what my heart was yearning to hear, to believe, and to understand; and somewhere deep within, already knew.

In response to these inspired words, I commented the following to Rachel's original status:
"Oh, my, my! This is so immensely profound and an absolute truth! Those of us who have a tendency to try to "fix" broken things are all too often enveloped so deeply within our loved one's toxic and deathly world that it becomes our own, we lose our selves, Our REAL, TRUE, DIVINE selves. And even more devastatingly, (and on our part, selfishly) those little, precious, prefect and pure spirits who dwell among this sickness, can also become sick themselves. In that moment, a tragedy occurs. In that moment, a cycle continues.
I am overjoyed to say for myself and for the special spirits over whom I hold charge, that though this road may seem treacherous, and lonely, and often overwhelming, I am moving forward, step be step, in Faith, and in the knowledge that I will soon feel the sunshine upon my cheeks.
So regardless of how it looks, to myself or to anyone else, I am walking hand-in-hand with my sweet babies, into a brighter and limitless future."

Then again today, my brilliant Rachel posted a very interesting piece of information as her status:
"A Howard Gardners Study on the genius level in society found that at 4yrs old, nearly 100% were at genius level, at 20 yrs old it went down significantly to 10%, and at 25yrs old, down to 2%!! This proves that we LET authority figures, self image and environment dictate us and take the genuis out of us. Thats a problem!"

Because I am in complete agreement with her, and because of some other truths I believe, I commented back to her the following:
"That is pretty much how it works with one being their true self. From the moment the first person said or did something hurtful to us as a child, we built a wall,then the next person, and more wall, and so on, and so on. Sometimes we ourselves are even the one creating the hurt that moves us away from our true self. We live in a Mad, mad world!..."

I am ready to truly live and create the Amazing life my children AND I deserve! Look out world, here we come!!!

Needing a little reminder...

So as I continue through my life and endure the inevitable trials that come along with mortality, I often forget about myself and about who I am. I came across a statement I created several years ago and I think it is time to give myself a little reminder of just who I really am!...

I am a RADIANT, BEAUTIFUL, LOVING, PASSIONATE Woman of Light. Through being that, I bring forth Enthusiasm, Peace, and Purity; creating a world where all of God's children are surrounded by Joy, Acceptance, and Freedom.

I have also decided to add another line that came to mind tonight and I think it is one of my new favorite things!...

My Influence has no Limit, and no Limitation can stop my Influence!

I am truly thankful for the days when I can remember my true worth. I appreciate the days in which I am reminded that I am a Divine Spark of my Heavenly Father and was lovingly created in his image.
And as I recall a saying I heard when I was young, "...Cause God don't make no Junk!"
I can only smile to myself, embrace my children, and offer up complete appreciation for the opportunities I have been given, and the lessons I am learning in my life.

And the Results Are...

My Spring 2010 Final Grades are up! Yeah! I am so happy that I FINALLY get to know how I did in all of my classes.

So here's the Basic Rundown

BIOL 1010 General Biology... B

ENGL 1010 Introduction to Writing... A

HLTH 1200 First Aid... A

MAT 1010 Intermediate Algebra... A-

PES 1300 Swimming I... A


I am so HAPPY! The only way I could be happier is if the A- was actually an A and the B was an A. But really, I am totally OK with these grades. I did struggle a bit with Math and was truly afraid I would end up with a lower grade than I got. Biology, was my own little torture. Because it was a self-paced class, that meant I could put it off until the end of the semester (not a wise thing to do AT ALL!!) I hadn't intended to do so, but it was really easy to tell myself I could just do it later. A B in a Biology class where I didn't watch hardly any of the 32 hour long episodes, and did all of the assignments and studying within the last two weeks of the semester is nothing to complain about. I am just glad it wasn't any lower than that.
Now, that I have officially gotten my Spring 2010 grades, Summer 2010 semester classes start TODAY! I don't actually have a class until tomorrow, but, hey... Gotta love my 5 day summer vaca!!