Friday, January 13, 2012

So... not the most consistent blogger on the block

I just came back to my blog and realized the last time I posted was in August... of last year. I'm sorta taken aback by my laxidasical attitude toward blogging. Of course, my schedule has been a bit tight, what with five kidlets, and working graveyards, going to school full-time, and taking anatomy from UVU. Piece of advice for any student at UVU who may need anatomy as a prerequisite.

RUN!!

Run far, far away and take it from ANY other school you can.

Unless you have all the free-time in the world, and an amazing memory (of which I have neither), this course has been made so incredibly difficult it is ridiculous.

Anyhoo. On to better and brighter things.

The past several months have been intense, but great. So many things have happened. I will post a sort of year in review soon, but for now, here are some goals I have set for myself.

1. Get healthy! This will hopefully include some weight loss, but my main goal has no number. I simply need to reduce my chances of becoming diabetic, and of having a heart attack or stroke at a young age. i also want to be able to chase around with my children without feeling like my lungs are being ripped out and my chest will explode. Oh, and drink lots more water!!
2. Reduce stress. Stress is simply a part of life, but I intend to change how I deal with that stress and how I let it affect me in all of its varying ways.
3. Begin my support group for "regular" single-mothers. I have some lists created, and am gearing up for a big kick-off event and trying to get it all going. More details on that to come! ;)
4. Apply and be accepted into a Nursing program. Just gotta get it done, and see what happens there.
5. Get control back of my children. Jenna our nanny is literally a gift from Heavenly Father in our lives, but it is time for me to step back in (as much as I can) as the main caregiver.

I have more in my head, but these are a few important ones I thought I would mention. I also want to get back in the blogging swing of things. Let's see how I do! LOL

Monday, August 22, 2011

Dangerous weapons, and, like, such as...

So... I just have to say Something about a certain person giving a certain 9 year old boy-child a dangerous weapon to have all for himself. I don't care that it was given to him in order to "help" him be better suited for a camping trip... or survival in a rain forest, for that matter.

Before you deem a young child prepared to weild a Foot-and-a-half long bladed instrument; perhaps you should speak to the Custodial parent of said child regarding this decision.

Perhaps the custodial parent would be a bit put off by the thought of her young son trying to cut wood or other random objects with such a dangerous weapon. Why would a machete be the first option for such excursions. Not that a child should have sole posession of something like a hatchet, either; but I think this might have been a better option for the given circumstances.

Also, when said custodial parent has other small, younger, and oh-so-curious children in the house; considerations for safety must be made regarding what is allowed to come into the home.

I am sure the custodial parent loves not being offered a choice in the matter regarding the giving of a dangerous weapon to her child. And I am sure said custodial parent adores the fact that in attempting to relieve the boy-child of this dangerous weapon, the boy deems that as a direct attack on themselves, as well as the non-custodial parent. Leaving one of them feeling a bit backed against a wall, so to speak.

I am so happy I don't have to deal with situations such as the above circumstance. ...Not ever...

Friday, July 15, 2011

Yep... We Did It!!

So...

Yes.

I did it.

After over a year without any of our own pets besides a couple of very short living goldfishes, and soem stray animals my kids tried to bring home...

We got one.

A pet.

A kitty, to be precise.



The concensus is that her name is Maria, and she is about 8 weeks old. She is litter box trained and we are going to eventually get her outside trained so we won't even need a litter box.
I am hoping this newest addition to our family helps the kids feel better. You know, because they say that pets help with anxiety and stuff.

We will see!

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Snapshots in the Ol' Backyard

A little while back, I decided that it was time to get some current photos of all of my children.



So after letting them know we were going to do a "Photo Shoot"... and having to convince Xander that we wanted his normal look, not a gangster with a drawn on beard look...



We got everyone dressed and headed outside. We had a bit of a disadvantage dealing with the sun in people's eyes...



We tried a variety of poses, because I was trying to do something creative and have them pose all artsy.



And finally, I captured a couple of them that I really like of all of them together.




We got some individual shots that I LOVE as well, but I will save those for another post on another day...

Aren't my children just adorable?!?!

Sunday, May 15, 2011

My BABY turns 3!!!



O.M.G... I can't believe my baby is already three. Seems like only yesterday he was kicking around in my tummy while I hefted around my newest sack of potatoes Gavvy...



Then he was soon thereafter brought home from the hospital, the smallest of all of my children born at only six little pounds...



And we have celebrated three birthdays with him since then. Now, to be honest, I don't have issues with my age. I am in my early thirties... SO WHAT!?!?



But to have children that are getting older really rocks my boat from time to time. I know. I know. I am strange!!





But can you blame me, look how big and handsome he is!? I mean, he is just the baby of the family. The oldest is turning eleven next month!



WOW!! Is all I can say. Love you PeyPey!!

Some catching up!

Obviously I have a little bit of catching up to do on the old Blog-a-log. Following this post you will see a few of the things we have been up to the past few months...

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Wow! 30 Days didn't last very long...

So if you haven't already given up on me yet, I am finally back. At least for the Moment! Between work, school, five kids, homework, church, and everything else that comes about on a daily basis in our household, I don't get to my blog much lately! I feel even slothful about it. But...

I do want to set a goal to post at least once a week. And then we will see how that goes. I can't make any promises, but it is on my To Do list.

Loves to you all!!

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Day 6: Something You Hope You Never Have to Do

There are so many things in my life that I hope I never have to do, along with things I hope I never have to do AGAIN!

The first thing to pop into my mind would be to have to bury one of my children. The second thought was to have been at fault for the death or the injury of my own child.



As I thought further about this topic, however; all sorts of ideas came into my mind. I hope to never get divorced again. I hope to never be homeless again; ESPECIALLY with my children involved. I hope to never hurt people. I hope to never lose my Faith… The list seems endless. But one thing came strikingly into my thoughts and I discovered what I truly hope never to do.



I hope I am NEVER responsible for the death of someone else’s child; whether by accident, some sort of misconduct, carelessness, or… ANYTHING really.



Though the death of my own child would be a tragedy and cause me complete and utter devastation; I could not imagine the guilt that would be associated with causing that devastation for another Mother or Father, another Sister or Brother, another Grandmother or Grandfather…

Just typing these words gives me chills. Yep. That’s the one!

Monday, January 17, 2011

Day 5: Something I hope...

Something I hope to do in my Life…

I have many, many things that I hope to do in my life, but most of them seem so very basic, that I struggle to move beyond them to any sort of a “fantasy” type of hope. I don’t mean some crazy outlandish hope, but things like, “I would love to travel the world”… because I just can’t even see that far right now. The things I hope for in my life are not at all fancy, or exciting (to most people, at least); but to me, they are the world!

I hope to someday be sealed to my children and my husband for Time and All Eternity in the LDS Temple. I does not really matter which one, though I think I would like the Salt Lake City temple the best… (Mostly because it looks like a castle and this moment would be like a Princess’s dream come true!)



Someday, I hope to (more like, I AM GOING TO…) completely take care of my own family without the aid or support of any outside sources. To any of you who do not know what I mean by this, you are blessed! To those of you who do, I know you can completely relate.

I also hope for menial things like; owning my own house, having a running vehicle that fits my entire family, finishing school… WITH a degree, cooking dinner every night, keeping my house clean for more-than a day, owning NICE furniture (by that I mean something that we didn’t get for less than $100 at DI or a yard-sale), and being able to take my children on vacation.

So, yeah! Not the most grand of dreams, but they are mine and I work my tail off towards them EVERYDAY!!!

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.

Today is also a deep one in my book. Honesty can be scary when I have to start putting other people's names into the equation. There are a couple of people I must forgive in the near future, but I believe the most important person for me to forgive right now is my "almost" ex-husband, Matt.

As people, we can only do the best we can with the knowledge and the abilities that we currently have… And that is all. I know Matt did the best he could based upon his life experiences, the knowledge he had acquired, and the tools he had accumulated.

But I felt as though that was not enough. I felt that he should have done more, learned more, taken new directions when the ones he was exploring were not working, and TRIED HARDER. These expectations were my own, and for that; I must ask Matt for forgiveness.

Matt, for all of the actions I did not agree with, or were unhappy about; I forgive you.
For all the moments where I felt sad, or angry, or scared; I forgive you.
For the moments when your voice was raised, or the words were hurtful; I forgive you.

Matt… I forgive you. Please Forgive me?

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.

This is one of those topics that can get really deep, and in some respects, somewhat difficult for me. You see, if you paid attention to my first two days of truth, you probably noticed that I have a tendency to find fault in myself and accept blame even for things that I have ABSOLUTELY no control over.

Those words having been spoken, I probably should forgive myself for that… but that forgiveness is for another time, on some other day.

Something pressing in my life that I must forgive myself about is the times with my children that I have lost my temper and not walked away, AND for the times when I allowed others who had lost their tempers to negatively act upon those little people most precious and dear to me. I am their Mother, their Caregiver, their Protector, and their Guide. I often failed to do my job in the past. Sometimes I failed BIG TIME!! And even though some challenges have been completely unavoidable, I have moments where I want to just BAWL for what my children have gone through.

…And I still feel as though I fail E.V.E.R.Y. D.A.Y!!

The difference between today and the past is not truly that significant. But at the same time, I think it is HUGE!!

The difference is that today, as I struggle with my children, my job, my spirituality, my college course-work, my housework, my broken down car, and my personal health, I know that I am pressing forward and doing better. The choices I make are moving my family, and my-self, towards a better tomorrow. That makes TODAY superior to yesterday, and tomorrow will be even more amazing!

Though I will never forget losing my own temper or not stepping in when someone else did; I can forgive. I will forgive… I DO Forgive.

Wow.

What a load off.

Forgiveness is Amazing, and such a gift from our Savior!! Love it!

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Day 2: Something I Love About Myself

Something I LOVE about myself…

Now, this is a much more difficult subject matter for me to tackle. I have that stupid girl tendency to constantly look at my failures and short-comings, instead of focusing on the good I have to offer. Let’s see what I can come with, shall we?



1. I love that I can look at most people and see their potential. I long for those around me to become the amazing souls that I know they can be. This can also be considered a downfall, but in general, this is a great trait!

2. I love that I am patient, and loving, and kind, and only want the best for everyone I encounter. Especially my children! I want everything in the world for them… minus all the yucky stuff.

3. I love my eyes, because they are a pretty blue, and have always stayed steady, regardless of my weight, or my hair length, or my hair color. Always blue, and always clear.

4. I love the children that I am so blessed to be called Mother to. I personally thing they are the most beautiful children ever, and I am willing to argue that point until the ends of the Earth.

5. I love that I have many talents, though I would like to use them more often. I love to sing, and write, and dance, and act… Yeah. I guess you would have to call me a performer. Oh!! And I do love to cook, AND I am pretty good at it, if I do say so myself! Just ask any of my dinner guests who have been lucky enough to experience my Amazing Mashed Potatoes!!!

Once I actually started to think about the things that I could love about myself, I actually came up with several, and that makes me very happy. I am excited for this 30 days of truth journey, though I know that many very personal posts are still to come. Wish me luck!!

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Day 1: Something You Dislike About Yourself...

"Oh, boy! Where do I start?" is the first thing to cross my mind when I asked myself this question. Then I realized that this is not about vanity, or about my struggle with my own body, or that the dark circles under my eyes never seem to go away. This is more than just beyond the shallow. So here goes:

1. I dislike that I lose my temper with my children sometimes. I know that to get angered is human nature, but to react in anger is under my control. I dislike that I react sometimes in ways that I wish I had not.

2. I dislike that I worry about what others think of me… A LOT! I wonder what people think about what I am wearing, how much weight I have gained, whether or not I am wearing makeup, if the color of my hair makes me look older, and what they think of me as a twice divorcee with five children, a part-time job, a full-time school schedule, and the seeming inability I have to keep my children sitting at least semi-quietly on our row during Sacrament Meeting.

3. I dislike that my family has to struggle so much right now, because I am currently ill-prepared to support them completely on my own.

4. I dislike having to feel dependent upon others, while at the same time, I don’t like that I cannot simply allow myself to lean on others during my times of need.

5. I dislike that I cannot keep my house clean, or pay my children allowances, or attend every single school activity that they are involved in. I want to be their supporting their little spirits in each and every endeavor they pursue, but I cannot. At least… not right now.

The good thing about the things that I dislike about my self is that I know that I can change them. I am only human and I can only work to be better than the day before. Though I fail EVERY DAY, I am striving for the best life I can offer Mariah, Alex, Mikayla, Gavin, and Peyton. I love them so much, and they are my world!

Friday, January 7, 2011

Awesome Idea!! 30 Days of Truth...

So, my Amazing and lovely Blogger friend Lola, has started this project on her blog, and I think it is a GREAT idea. I think this is a good project for myself, even if no one else in the world reads it, or even cares!!

Here is the list of things that I will be sharing with all the World over the next thirty days(or 40, or 50 days, or even next several months...):

Day 1: Something you dislike about yourself.
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like {poo}.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

So, here we go! Off on a new adventure!!

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

My Bubbah, Alex. Gotta love him!

So Alex has picked up a habit lately...

There are some days that I really wonder about this kid...

He is staying awake until all hours, acting completely zoned out from time to time, ignoring a variety of people at various times during the day, shirking his responsibilities around the house, and sometimes not even wanting to come to dinner...

Think I should be worried?



Yeah... If this is the worst habit he pickes up, I will almost promise that I will never complain about it. (Cause, you know, I can't ACTUALLY promise never to complain about him when he is reading...cause the ignoring and staying up to all hours can get to be a bit much.)

He's also a goof, for those of you who didn't already know... Oh, wait! Everyone already knew! Oh, well! Here's a photo just so we have some concrete evidence should his goofiness ever come into question:

Monday, January 3, 2011

Gotta love my Baby!!

Peyton can never just be happy to play with his own things. He likes to wear everyone else's shoes, clothes, and play with EVERYBODY else's toys. Here's a photo of Peyton in Alex's new skateboard helmet. He seems to have gotten back into the habit of squinching up his face when he smiles or we say, "Cheese!"



Goodness gracious! I love all of my children, and in photos like this one, I really LOVE MY BABY!!!

Friday, December 31, 2010

Lots and Lots to catch up on...

In fact, I don't think I am ever going to truly catch up on what turned out to be a very eventful 2010. But I can sure try! Here goes. A snapshot of the Tilton Bunch's 2010... the good, the bad, and the extremely ugly!! Heehee:

The year started out with my new job working for the best company in the world, NuSkin Enterprises.



We had fun as Gavin got a fish hook in his foot and ended up in the ER:


We celebrated Peyton's 2nd Birthday:


We experienced the "Dog at Large" incident with Butch and Angel...


...Where they alledgedly attacked a horse. This led to our family having to get rid of our beloved animals. Sadly, we missed our Butchie the very most! We were very happy that he could go stay with Shalecia's Dad in Delta, and didn't have to be put down.

We really miss this big 'ole Teddy Bear!!

I made the Dean's list after successfully completing Spring 2010 semester!

This also helped me receive a Dean's Merit Scholarship for the 2010-2011 school year.

We celebrated Mariah and Alex's Birthday with a really exciting Luau. Unfortunately, our camera had broken at that time, and we don't have any pics from that awesome day. But we had a ball. Sorry to any of you whom missed it!

Shortly after we celebrated the kids' Birthday's, we were forced to move from our home and began our adventure of moving from house to house, while we lived out of our car for the summer. It wasn't as bad as it sounds, and we got to spend some great time with family and friends!

We stayed with Aunt Christy, Jan, and Lukas:


We celebrated Mikayla's Birthday with our good friend Kim, and her daughter Kloe!!




We got to enjoy a few different Parades. Here's my crazy kids standing on the sidelines, with my friend Dustin hanging out in the background.


We spent some afternoons playing at an amazing park in Pleasant Grove called Discovery Park!






We got to spend some time down at Aunt Catherine's House:


...Where Gavin decided to use Uncle Cade's beard trimmer and give himself a haircut!


Around this same time, Grandma Judy had surgery and we took the kids for a visit while she was in the hospital. She was on quarantine, so our required attire looked something like this:


I continued school throughout the summer. As a project for my Psychology class, I cut my hair and donated it to Locks of Love. Here was my hair before:


And here is my hair after...



And then again after, when I dyed it red:

I think the all over color makes me look older, and I am working on getting some highlights back in this hair 'o mine. We'll see what it ends up looking like.

Fall semester started, and we were FINALLY able to get ourselves into our own home once again.


Along with the new house, came a new addition to our family! Jenna is our new Nanny and we LOVE HER!!!


Mika and Laura got their new house finished in September, and shortly after that, Mom and Dad got to move into their "Master Suite" built just for them.


We had the opportunity to get the kids dressed up on a couple of different days to celebrate Halloween. The first time was at Spanish Oaks Elementary for the Costume Parade:


The second time was on the Saturday before Halloween, since it fell on a Sunday this year. Here's the whole gang, including Isabel and her little peeps!


As we marched into winter, snow fell, and kids played...


and snow fell and kids got buried...


as snow fell, and Fell and F.E.L.L.!!


The Holidays approached and the kids decorated Cookies with Jenna:


And NuSkin gave us the BEST Christmas Party Ever. They had Comedian Brian Regan come and perform for us, which was AWESOME!!


Then came Christmas Night. I happened to wake up after Santa had made his visit and I snapped a couple of photos. Here are the stockings:


And here is the Christmas tree surrounded by presents. It seems like a ton, but if you consider that I have a whole gaggle of kids all by myself, well, ya know...


Now we have come upon the end of the year. The Ball has dropped in Times Square and it is well beyond midnight in my little home in Spanish Fork, Utah. I am excited for what the New Year may bring. I am hopeful that things will be Amazing.

I wish you all my Blessings and Joys to you and your families in this time of new beginnings.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011!!! ;)